It has been seven years since my last post. Seven long years that saw plenty of changes that took place, both good and bad. I was reading all of my earlier posts and it made me realised how naive and hallucinated I was, when it comes to the subject of love especially. The rants on "how we can't be together," "She was never meant to be mine," bla bla bla were self-curated conflict to make me feel how I wanted to feel at that point of time. It was my imaginations and perceptions of how it would feel to be in the situation that I wanted to be at that point of time. Today, I truly understand how does it feel. Today, I feel what is it like to be... I don't know whether heartbroken is the right word to be used in this context or not. Seriously, there are too many things that I want to say now, but I do not know how and what.